the love nest

so my mom and i have been spending the past few day offs searching for wedding favors, gift exchanges items, room deco, the bedspread and all.. in short, anything and everything that is possibly related to the wedding preparation.. it was so much fun.. a whole new experience.. of course it also made me, the fickle-minded girl of the family to start deciding on certain things. i was forced to. haha but im glad i managed.

the other day, fiance and i went to check out The Pinnacle @ Duxton.. all we had to do was to find the guy who held the entrance pass to the 50th floor sky garden.. thankfully we both bumped into an Indian guy who directed us to the security officer at blk 1E *that has its story of its own, by the way.. haha* the scenery up there was breathtaking.. if only we had a place there to live. hahaha!

today tho, was a day we both have been anxiously waiting for. the fateful evening .. the love nest appointment at 7pm.. oh yes! we were invited to come down to choose our love nest! haha. we were less fortunate the last time we tried.. we had many more prayers for this round. Alhamdulillah! we got it.. and we made it. we felt sick and nervous while waiting for our turn to come. the feeling was undescribable.. really.. another new beautiful moment carved in our love chapter..

cant believe it but we got it!! we did! and it will be ready in 2014, with God’s will. :)

mommy and mommy-in-law were the first to know the news… hehe mommy was easily pleased with the fact that we got through this time. mommy-in-law, on the other hand, had more questions to ask mr fiance.. hehehehe poor guy.. but at the end of the day, we all felt really happy with our choice.. and trust me! i cant wait! hehehe

im so blessed. i know i am the moment i found you.. hehe we have alot of beautiful things lined up for us, baby.. and im so excited to go through each and every moment with you.. :)

ps: baby! we have a HOUSE!  *weeeeeeeeee* im so in love with you right now.. hehehee

Greenday Live in Singapore!

we went to watch Greenday for the first time ever.. in Singapore and it was awesome! haha i may not be the biggest fan of theirs but to watch them performing live.. was like pulling them out straight from the tube and hearing them sing! perfect voice and overwhelming performance altogether..

the aching back, the tired thighs and calves from the 3 hours of standing at the freestanding area was all worth it for greenday. the first time ever too that i went for a freestanding tix.. haha a surprise tix from beloved to start off with.

importantly, he had so much fun! can surely see from the nonstop jumping and screaming and singing to every of their song.. hahaa he’s like a child again that night. “.. i feel like im 16 again..” thats what he said. hehehe

now have a good rest k, baby.. :) sweet dreams of greenday tonight! and thank you once again for bringing me along for the concert! :)

the day i start writing again..

 

phew! 2010 has stepped in! now thats a long pause from the last time i wrote in.. march 2009.. the month we got engaged. april.. may.. june.. july.. august.. september.. november.. december.. where was i during all those months? when did i decide to give it a pause and what was the reason behind it? i really couldnt recall.

what did we try that year? wakeboarding at batam,  gokart-ing with the muaythai couple, checking out the hortpark, birthday at the museum with a pampering spa massage and dinner at the hotels, learning more bout taking good photography.. speaking of which, he is becoming more of a photographer than i am.. with his evergrowing multiple lens.. guitar hero! and wii for my room.. along with the new tv which i got for myself.. so that we can have a lil more privacy when u move in , Insya Allah.. :) and how can i not include this one – sweet charity and ungu concerts at the esplanade. those were truly a blast! *pasha pasha pasha*

besides that, there were times where i waited for my promotion with alot of hopes and prayers.. i was long due and was disappointed when it didnt happen.. but with words of encouragement with all the beautiful caring people around me, i decided to move on and try again for another year..

those months shafiee and i made our wedding research and preparations.. that i can clearly recall.. :) our wedding preparation.. had a lists of good contacts for the deco, the cameraman, videoman and of course, something which goes without saying – the catering itself!

and im so excited for the big day to come..

this year will truly be a blast, i sure can tell that! had our first cousins’ outing last weekend.. something ive been nudging him to plan for, for the longest  time.. it was about time that i get to know them closer.. which i did.. had a great time with them, along with the aunts and uncles.. played like there was no tomorrow till my body ache so bad the next day at work.. haha but it was all worth it.. :) thank you cuzzies for the fun day out!

his elder bro got engaged a week before that.. the lovely couple who will be sharing the same wedding day as us.. i cant wait!!! *hehe*

so whats new this year? Alhamdulillah, i finally got promoted to a senior staff nurse.. and thank you to everyone who shared the joy with me.. for believing that i truly deserve that badge though i was really afraid it wouldnt happen this year. little that i realised, everyone had me in their prayers.. and gave me hugs and well wishes when they heard the fabulous news.. :) this year will be different. new set of responbilities, new set of challenges for sure.. and Insya Allah, new set of great beautiful moments too!

this year, we’ll go to the greenday concert in january.. backstreet boys in february *haha! ya i know, for some, this is so old school, band for the girls* whats for march? the 2nd year anniversary Insya Allah.. and its 1yr as engaged couple.. :) we have been through alot, havent we, love? but im grateful, so very grateful to have you in my life.. its a fairytale lovestory ive found. :) *who says fairytale lovestory doesnt exists*

this year too, Insya Allah, we go for our HDB appointment.. we were accepted once. on the day we were about to go for the appointment, we received a traumatizing sms from them, saying that our appointment has been cancelled as all the units have been taken up. i still remember that day. it felt as if we just lost a precious child. it was really demoralising.. one which soon came to an end when we came across in the papers that another place was open for applicants.. it was a long painful wait once more.. but hopefully its better this time.. :)  

so much to say tonight.. i shall save the rest for another day.. :)

welcome all, to the new beautiful year of 2010. the year history will be made.

good night!

1st March 2009

the day has finally arrived.. the day which marked an important moment in the chapter of my life.. i pray that we will always be blessed with good health and patience, more understanding and of course, loving each other more as the day goes by..

love you, sweetheart..

 

time really flies..

i dont even recall the last time i blogged. too many things have taken place.. too many work had to be done.. it has been a busy period in my life.. every moment is packed with schedules and datelines to meet… surely procrastination isnt a very friendly thing to do..

the day is drawing near too.. before i could even feel the breeze.. just a couple more days left before im known officially as someone’s fiancee.. very excited, nervous, scared, joyful all at the same time.. that night i even cried myself to sleep.. i dont know why… maybe im too happy that its finally happening? maybe im scared? haha but im glad that this day is finally here in this story of my life.. at the very least, i dont have to worry bout work at the moment coz ive been sent to attend a 2 weeks mass casualty course at work… i dont have to get so mentally and physically tired with work.. just with the notes.. but its better to study than to work.. hehe

i will soon be engaged to the most wonderful, funny, thoughtful, naughty, understanding, hot, smart boy ive ever met my entire life..

these past weeks have been filled with lots of things to settle.. things like outfit fitting, opening another savings account, collecting all the ordered items, cleaning up the house, doing the gift sets.. thats the most fun part of this whole thing… i love doing gift sets.. the last time my brother saw my talent in this, he was suggesting that i should put it up on the website, i can even start a simple business from it.. i can.. its just that i dont have alot of time. my schedule is already packed, as it is.. hehe

hopefully this sunday will run smoothly.most importantly, i hope and pray that we will always remain with each other. that every little arguments and quarrels will only bring us closer and stronger.  may our relationship lasts a lifetime, Insya Allah…

*smiles*

where do i go from here..

how, where and who do i express my feelings to? do i just keep all the hurt in me, just so the words wont be twist back around and hit my back in my heart? what do i do when the person who i look up to is the one who brings me back down to the ground? how do i say this out without hitting directly on anyone or anything for any matter?

im so hurting inside.. im screaming.. but who will hear me? who will see thru this hurt? who will help cure me?

who…

its not like ive not been in this position before. but i hate to see myself be in this same position once more. it shouldnt be happening at all. and it was not my fault to start off with.. but, how come it is being thrown back at me just because in this hurt, i retaliated and got pointed for it.

how is this fair for me, if it isnt fair for you?

sigh.. *tears*

angst

thats what im feeling right now but i dont wish to elaborate. instead, i rather write down the things that made me happy this couple of days.. my cousin’s engagement went on smoothly on that saturday though the night before was totally hell.. coz everything was very rushing..

sunday was the eve of chinese new year but it brought no luck to working in resus room coz the place was ultra busy. the combination was bad. i just knew the fengshui isnt there,especially when i have to work with fazli.. the pretty boy with the threaded eyebrows.. hehehe thats a good one for the evening at least.

monday was at resus again.. this time it wasnt as bad as the one before.. only towards handing over shift did we receive a couple of cases.. not bad..

tuesday morning was well-spent at cca with a bunch of great ppl to work with.. and it went by very quickly.. after that, i came home for a good well deserving one hour massage.. im so glad she came that evening.. mommy and i had a good sleep that night..

wednesday was supposed to be spent in johor but the tailor shop was closed and was only opened the day after.. so since my aunt and twin cousins were already at our place, we decided to go out anyway. met shafiee at vivo city for lunch and a short shopping spree with the ladies before we went to collect our engagement rings..

thereafter decided to go for an ice cream treat cum belated bday celeb for the twins and my aunt, we went to clarke quay’s haagen daaz.. all of us got so hyped up after that, that we all walked over to scdf museum (or whatever they called it) to grab some aircon as well as get some educational moment there.. did we?

took a cab home for dinner and spent the night playing scrabble with dad till late..

today was a surprise dinner for bro.. asked dayana for a major plan and thankfully it all turned out well.. bro and shafiee came back from soccer, having family dinner cum belated bday gathering for my bro.. menu was a simple homemade fish and chips with choc and ice cream fondue, courtesy of dayana.. and then topped the night with another game of scrabble, which then left everyone mentally drained out..

well, dad and mom must have slept by now and bro has returned to station after sending shafiee and dayana home..

me? i generally happy, though a bit chissed off over certain things.. but i guess i just let it be buried in me..

anyway, be working tomorrow pm. wonder where i will be assigned to. as of now, im checking out LV bags and coach bags on multiply and surprisingly, they all interest me.. and yeah, i can say that my mood is slightly lifted up now..

dunno why.

anyway, shall continue surfing (though i wont be getting any of those bags.. or will i? i dunno…)

schedule for the mth..

i need an organiser.. or a secretary for that matter coz…

1. i need to do the big project

2. i need to collect the cake.

3. i need to go for the costume-fitting appt.

4. i need to get the macaroons.

5. … the cupcakes..

6.hair treatment..

7. i need to do waxing.

8. collect the flowers.

9. get the chocolates.

10. manicure?

 

not enough? *faints* thats why i need a secretary or an organiser. better still, a clone of myself. *kwang kwang kwang*

on top of it all, i need to start writing my blogs again!! argh…

and i miss mr boyfriend.

start afresh

so is this the first entry for the new year? i think so.. *smiles* just completed my round of 3 nights and now its time to enjoy my FIVE off days.. how lovely!

this evening was the evening of the first phase.. meaning to say that this evening, his family as well as his relatives came over to my place for the engagement proposal.. i was nervous and tachy, of course.. well apart from the reason of having them coming over, there was a bigger anxiety related to that. it was because, importantly, they are coming over because they’re asking for my hand in marriage.. its like.. oh my God..its about me.. they came here for me.. it was something that ive never experienced before.. so, all that explained the reason behind my anxieties and tachycardias..

but im glad everything went on smoothly.. that was the first phase.. its a pass.. *smiles*

dad and and his family discussed about the date, the dowry, the gifts.. and then there were food.. good food.. hehe

so now, next is to prepare for the remainder of the gifts to buy with beloved. that shall be done during our 5 days off.. we could have gone for a short getaway.. but… there’s alot more things to be done.. time is ticking..

this morning, i had a quarter of the gifts decorated.. with a sleepy mind.. hehehe

and the story continues… *smiles*

closing speech for the year-end 2008

this time around, as i write this speech, im seated in my DIY ikea chair in my room.. the whole day i was at home, resting, still recovering from my laryngitis as well as URTI, given 2 days rest by my family doctor.. thinking from the time that i woke up till this moment about the speech that im about to write..

year 2008 has been, at its very most, a roller coaster ride, challenging and fun, most mentally tested, some might say. memorable in many ways too..

started off the year with being in department of emergency. alot of things has changed, the working condition, the difference in our welfare, the colleagues, the environment.. in there, i learn many things.. was sent for ecg course, triage course and the latest was the medical trauma resuscitation course, in which i find to be very useful in times when i’m assigned to resus room to handle the cases.

in department of emergency, is where i find new working colleagues, new challenges too in dealing with the public. i learnt to adapt to many changes. till this very day, im still learning new things.. every single day.

it was within this year too that i graduated from university of sydney, thereafter holding the title of bachelor in nursing.. after the bad runnings of having to retake 4 modules which i didnt manage to pull through a year ago, i finally cleared them all during the first 4 months of this year. i was the happiest one around and im so glad that i was graduating with the rest of the class in september 2008. plans were made with the family to attend graduation in australia but there were many other things which caused the plan to change. so we had it in singapore instead. nonetheless, it was not any less glorious.. to celebrate it with friends who sticked by me during the whole course.. it was a memorable journey i had with them. if i could, i want to go back to school again and relive those moments..

this year too, was when i found my love. at the most unexpected moment of all.. that eventful day which fell on the 1st of march 2008, 1630hours on a saturday, while i was in the changing room, i was being called up by a colleague to critical care area because the one person who wished to get to know me was there. initially i was reluctant to come over as i thought it was just another prank by my playful colleagues. she hang up the phone on me, leaving me with no other choice but to drag myself to walk over to critical care area.

i couldnt see him. i didnt know what he looked like, in the first place, let alone to be able to spot him. so i went over to ask my colleague and she said he went out to register for his patient, she told me to hang around for a little while more until he entered critical care area. so i did.. and i walked around, talking to my other colleagues, made a good one whole circle and came back to where i was initially waiting for the mystery man.

then i saw.. standing at the corner of critical care area with his smart uniform, clean cut look with that spectacles and the stethoscope around his neck with his right hand documenting the case which he just brought in.. in full concentration, not noticing anything else around him.. while i was standing on his right side, not too far away from where he was. and so i thought, “is this the one they have been trying to tell me about? that guy who wanted to get to know me?” and shortly after, as i was still observing that guy, that particular colleague hinted to me that he was the guy she has been referring to all this while. and i just smiled. a positive smile.

i walked closer to him as he was still writing down on his note, i nudged him on his right arm… *funny how all this is still so clear in my head.. how all this is playing like a recorded video, just waiting to be played.* instead of making a right turn, he went an anticlockwise full body slow motioned turn and when his eyes met mine, he just lost all focus and his papers flew.. i was nailed down by that reaction that i didnt do anything but giggled as he picked up all his papers on the floor… “a big guy with a soft heart” i thought…

from then on, life has never been the same. the joy and laughter and every lovely moment he shared with me, every pinch of love that he showered me with, has made me a more beautiful person on the inside.. knowing that there is still someone who loves me more than i love myself. care for me more than i care for myself. his presence, indeed, is the most pleasant surprise that have ever taken place. the best gift that God gave to me, besides having a wonderful set of parents and a wonderful brother as well as a peaceful life and good education.

and everything moved on so quickly that sometimes, i just wished time were more on our side, so that we could embrace every little moment together.. but, i have never regretted knowing him. from the time we finally set eyes on each other, till this very day, every single moment has been a meaningful moment in my life. and i dont ever want it another way.

i understand that as we walk along this path, there will be times in which we will have differences in our thoughts and views, we will have quarrels and misunderstandings, that its not a bed of roses all the time, that i may not be perfect and that i may make mistakes, i may do the things that u might hate me to do or you might really test my water or you may make me cry.. but, i do want you to know that i love you, that every little thing that i do is for us, never a moment that i dont think of us. that if i could give you the world, i would give you so much more just to show you how much i feel blessed to have you in my life. i just want us to be happy with each other..

and.. with this new year that is coming, my wish is just one. to see us both in each other’s loving arms always, journeying through life together, a journey that God has planned out for us. being there for each other through good times and standing tall for one another through bad days as well. thank you for coming into my life. for making such a huge difference, for that fateful day at critical care area, for that footprint that will never ever be erased. for every moment. thank you for everything. and for loving me. i love you.